But my major addiction, my curse, is sugar. It took me years to learn that eating sugar was the reason I was so exhausted all the time. I tried cutting out white flour, sleeping more, sleeping less...nothing worked. Finally a few years ago I decided to give up sugar. And, I can't even explain the difference I felt. I was like a different person. I went from feeling so physically exhausted I could barely keep my eyes open during the day, to having so much energy I had to start taking Melatonin just to fall asleep at night.
There are a few major changes when I don't eat sugar for at least two days:
- I'm am pretty much constantly in a great mood. Nothing makes me mad, impatient, or grouchy. With sugar, on the other hand, I'm quick to snap, moody and, as I mentioned, exhausted.
- I have boundless energy. I have so much energy I can barely sit still.
- And my favorite part, I'm much more creative. It's like my mind isn't foggy anymore, instead it's open and clear. I can focus for hours on writing and thinking about my stories. When I eat sugar I can barely concentrate for a few minutes at a time.
But it does. I pay for it for days!
When I knew my dad and his wife were coming for a cookout, my first thought was, "If we can have a bon-fire, I can have a s'more." It's like all of my thoughts revolve around sugar. I was in heaven when I bought a roll of chocolate chip cookie dough to make cookies last week. I knew I'd eat more dough than anything. We didn't even have all of the groceries in the house before I had that roll open and was eating it. We ended up only having enough for nine cookies. I loved every minute of eating the dough, but I paid dearly for it for days. I was miserable. Absolutely miserable.
Does anyone else go through this? Do you have things you just can't stay away from even though you suffer afterwards? How do you stop?